Current mood:

sad

I restarted sending applications yesterday. I had to wait for Thomas to be able to translate my Curriculum and Application letter to German. Funny thing is I was refused far too many times in May because I cannot speak the language; but I have been told so many times lately that my German is quite good, that I start thinking it is unfair of them to refuse me on such grounds.

I do not feel well in sending the application, though. Even though my German is good enough for the speaking and for the reading, it is definitely not for the writing. So, somehow, I feel like I am lying when sending the application in German. But my chances are so limited, I should just concentrate on applying. It's a very hard process, coz I am not yet ready to go though out 100 denials again...

Wish me luck people, I really need it. I am sinking quite fast and I need something to keep my head above the dark water...